Today I learned to love

I wish today was the day I learned to love.

Today I just want to give in. I don’t want to think about love. I don’t want to draw about love. I have done over 500 heart drawings and I feel like I am going backwards today. I couldn’t seem to maintain my patience. It was a stack of things going wrong. The kind of day you wish you would have stayed in bed.  The thing is that drawing these hearts is changing me. I know me. I would have give up on this project a couple of years ago. The very fact I did a drawing tonight and wrote these sentences shows I am focused on becoming more loving no matter the set back. It is my life go to become a more loving person. I am not going to give up. I am going to keep drawing hearts. I am going to keep thinking about love as I drift off to sleep. There is no other coarse of action for me.