It’s been awhile since I posted any art. I have been busy writing. Not to mention trying to keep up with my four kids. We are starting to gear up for our move back to Los Angeles. Which isn’t easy when you have 4 kids, 2 cats and a lizard. Imagine all the work it takes getting a circus moving. We have really missed the weather and our old friends.. It’s been a cold winter here on the east coast. I hope this will be our last winter. I don’t really need to see snow again. One of the nice things I have been doing is reading again. I’m really trying to make money with my art. It hasn’t been easy.
I’m really thankful for any one that checks out my art. My goal is to send out a positive message. I need to focus on the writing aspect of my blog. I can ramble on. I am working on adding material that will be helpful in people’s lives.
I have been posting art with the theme of love for over three years. In all that time I haven’t had one piece get more than fifty likes. I keep spending money. I’ve redesigned my website three times. Its do for another overhaul. I don’t really like this layout. I buy more and more art supplies. I bought watercolor paints instead of a winter jacket. I’m planning on taking an art class online this year to improve my skills. With so little attention you may ask why do I keep doing it. Well I believe in the power of love. If one of my pieces get a person to think about love than its been worth it. We can never have to much love in this world. So I will keep making pieces.
Got a lot done today. Helped my dad clear out his garage so he can put a model A car inside. He is so happy that he is going to restore an old car. I hope that my son and I will be able to help him out some before we leave. The wife looks to be sick. It’s going to be long night.
When you talk about love being the most important thing people laugh.
Yet in movies when the bad guys want the hero to rob break into somewhere valuable they take his family. He had the ability at any point to do the robbery himself. He didn’t because his family was more important then money. At the end of the movie the hero gets back whats important. How come we can’t see this in our own lives.
FOr me its about finding balance between work and family. Don’t get me wrong I love my work. I love my family more. That isn’t always apparent to them. When I devout most of my time making money that think thats all I care about. They want me more than they want stuff. I try to think about work as a lease on my soul. I don’t want anyone to own it. My life should be mine first not my employer. During this time when most of us get a break from working try to spend as much time with your loved ones as possible. You will be much better for it.
looking forward to a morning I don’t have to get up early. I over slept this morning. I only do that when I’m sick. Every muscle in my body hurt today. That didn’t stop me from getting up. I had to get the kids ready for school. I had to make money to pay for bills. When I came home it was snowing. We slide into the driveway. Lucky no accident. When I got inside my 3 year old reminded me I promised him a hamburger if he was good. I didn’t want to go out. Yet I did. That is what love does. Now I hope they let me sleep in.
Spent the whole day fighting a migraine. The guys at work felt sorry for me. I was able to break through the other side around 4pm. I had a teacher conference for my oldest daughter. I filed for our new health insurance. I am exhausted. Need a good night sleep. Will need to snuggle with the wife tonight. That always makes me feel better.
It should be you me sandwich but I like the sound of me you sandwich better. I haven’t been feeling well lately. Really tired. I was mudding a wall today and the pan felt so heavy. I don’t know if it’s a lack of sleep. The hose to our RV froze last night. I woke up to no water. It had dropped below freezing last night and our hose hook up cost 230 dollars is suppose to heat up when it gets cold. It shouldn’t freeze unless its 45 below zero. Well it can’t work if the outlet its hooked up to dies. Which is what happened. I got a new GFI outlet at work today. Will replace tomorrow. Not a big fan of the cold. I can’t wait to get back to Southern California.
Running a little late today. Last night everyone in the family was up in the middle of the night. My wife got up to the kids eating waffles. Everyone was in a good mood despite the hour. I knew though in the morning the kids would be cranky about getting up for school. They weren’t to bad. Christmas is around the corner. I have no idea how we will make it. We don’t have a tree. When you downsize your life it’s hard to fit a Christmas tree in it. We will hardly have room for the presents. At least we have a roof over our head. Things are tough but we are getting by. I have good feelings about next year. I really plan to get my book done by the end of the holidays.
I consider this piece a work in progress. I had a rough day. My stomach has been going crazy. I pray I don’t have the stomach flu. My three year old just spent two days throwing up. I am not looking forward to two days of hanging with a bucket. Need to get some sleep.
Still working on finding an audience for my art. The art may seem simple and silly. I’m trying to make a powerful message easier to swallow. I want people to think back to a time when love wasn’t complicated. When I was a kid loved seemed so simple to me. It was easy for me to communicate my thoughts. As I got older I made love more complex. I tried making it conform to a whole set of rules. I became very unhappy. When I let all that go love snuck up on me. Love needs to be talked about more. We need to spend time each day thinking how we can be more loving. My hope is my art will help start some discussions.
Was a tough tough day. It felt like my brain was on fire. It was so bad I almost threw up a bunch of times. I was cranky most of the day. I did veg out on Sword art online. Loved it. It’s really cold today. The kids kept coming in and all day from making snowmen. It was the first snow of the season and they got a little crazy. I wish I could have enjoyed the day with them. I have to go buy another heater for the house. Most of the snow may melt but afternoon. Told the wife that the kids will have a delay going to school on Monday. I can feel it in my bones. School delays mess up are whole day. Ok need to go lay down.
It’s hard to work in a trailer that is bouncing all around. The kids are going crazy. I admit this is my fault. I bought them a 100 emoji balloons. They have blown up a bunch and are chasing them up and down the trailer. I’m trying to paint small little lines. Despite the tough week I’m having my art has been focused on fun. the piece is a little on the silly side. It took me awhile to learn how to draw a horse head. I didn’t they were very good but the kids loved them. Our youngest has been going to the potty. Which is a blessing. The downside to this is all the accidents. He has pooped in his pants twice today. He’ll get the hang off it soon. Ok need to get to bed. My boss said today if I don’t finish the job I’m on in a week I’m fired.
I grew up on video games. In fact there was no video games until I was about 8 years old. Yes I am old. I loved playing video games so much that I stole money from my Dad’s wallet. I got in a lot of trouble for that. I lived and breathed video games. I would beg for change outside the arcade. It was a much simpler time. I would get a couple of bucks each day. I could makes those quarters last. I was thinking about the game Defender when I did this piece. I wanted to try not using all black background. I will have to try a piece with a black background to see which one I like better. I keep experimenting with my art. I think its the only way to find those incredible pieces. Ryan Adams was talking about writing a song on the piano today. He said he like the piece he did but the song he was looking for was 10 more deep. We have to keep experimenting. It’s never easy to bare your soul. Though if you want to make true art one must reach into the places we are scared to show.
I could see myself saying this. I think about hanging out with my wife more than anything. It was a tough day at work. I installed a set of stairs. We got it roughed in. Tomorrow we will have to finish. I wasn’t feeling well this morning. Everyone around me is getting sick. I hope that I don’t get it. If you had to chose between time travel or hanging with your true love for the rest of your life what would you do. It’s an easy one for me. I would choose my wife than tease her about time traveling the rest of our days.