It’s been awhile since I posted any art. I have been busy writing. Not to mention trying to keep up with my four kids. We are starting to gear up for our move back to Los Angeles. Which isn’t easy when you have 4 kids, 2 cats and a lizard. Imagine all the work it takes getting a circus moving. We have really missed the weather and our old friends.. It’s been a cold winter here on the east coast. I hope this will be our last winter. I don’t really need to see snow again. One of the nice things I have been doing is reading again. I’m really trying to make money with my art. It hasn’t been easy.
I’m really thankful for any one that checks out my art. My goal is to send out a positive message. I need to focus on the writing aspect of my blog. I can ramble on. I am working on adding material that will be helpful in people’s lives.
looking forward to a morning I don’t have to get up early. I over slept this morning. I only do that when I’m sick. Every muscle in my body hurt today. That didn’t stop me from getting up. I had to get the kids ready for school. I had to make money to pay for bills. When I came home it was snowing. We slide into the driveway. Lucky no accident. When I got inside my 3 year old reminded me I promised him a hamburger if he was good. I didn’t want to go out. Yet I did. That is what love does. Now I hope they let me sleep in.
Spent the whole day fighting a migraine. The guys at work felt sorry for me. I was able to break through the other side around 4pm. I had a teacher conference for my oldest daughter. I filed for our new health insurance. I am exhausted. Need a good night sleep. Will need to snuggle with the wife tonight. That always makes me feel better.
Working on showing the steps I use to make a piece. Below is the finished piece.
I try not to post to much on Sunday its family fun day. We went to the dollar tree. Each kid got 2 dollars. Today’s haul was art supplies, toy axe, and candy. I let the kids pick out whatever they want. They go in wanting candy and half the time come out with coloring books. They help me get my smile back. Ok back to hanging out with the kids.
Tonight we went to a company party for my wife. She hates getting up in public. She had to get up twice. I loved every minute of it. It was an early Christmas present for me. It’s been a long day. I helped my dad earlier working on fixing up his condo. He is trying to sell it. We ended up meeting a couple when they came by for a showing. I think they are going to put a bid in. It would make a nice present for my dad selling that condo. He is tired of paying taxes on a property he never goes to. I’m going to lay in bed and veg out on a movie. Have a good night everyone.
This blog isn’t about making money. It’s not a blog about getting famous. Many many people are writing blogs about those subjects. My blog is about the love. A subject I consider the most important thing you can add to your life. Love lasts forever. Trust me fame only last for a short time. 19 years living in Hollywood I would always hear people walking down the blvd saying, “who is that?”From someone that is sick often I can tell you when Death is stalking you he doesn’t care about the money you have. Try to find love every day. Fail at it. Keep trying to find love. In the end you’ll never be disappointed you did. Because one day true love will show up like an old friend. You’ll be so happy. one last thing never give up on life. When I was a teenager I tried to end my life. I’m glad I failed. I would never have gotten to experience all this happiness. I never in a million years thought back then I would be married for 23 years and have 4 great kids. Life has so much to offer. Keep looking for love every day.
Draw a heart. Show love.
now you can buy a shirt with this image on zazzle.com
It took everything to get up this morning. I really wanted to blow off work. I made it to work though. It was a short day. I stained a door. Got really good responses to my modern art piece last night I decided to do another piece. Its a very simple piece. I’m experimenting with colors. When I took a picture of this piece for instagram you could barely see the yellow. The color really pops when I used a scanner. Very happy to have the next four days off. I can use the break to make the pieces for my kids book. I have to stay motivated. I can’t get caught up in nonsense. I need to get a good night sleep tonight. I hope that I do demo versions of the book layouts for the first two days. Then do the final versions on better paper the second two days. Fingers crossed I get it done.
Family plants my feet firmly on the ground. They give me wings to fly. I wake up every day wanting to improve their lives. Even if I become crazy rich I can never repay them for everything they have done for me. Their love has caused me to grow more than I ever thought possible. Each day they are helping me become the father/Husband I should be. They cheer on my successes. They lift me up when I fail. I never really knew happiness until they came into my life. Today we are traveling up to Washington D.C. to have fun at the museums. I can’t wait until I see all those smiles. Time to get those angels going.
I’m very lucky to be loved every day well pretty much every day by my wife. I sometimes don’t know what she sees in me. I can be a moody artist type. I suffer from headaches and insomnia. Which make me more cranky. I had a migraine all last night. I tried everything to get rid of it. I slept maybe 15 minutes. I was a crank. Instead of doing all the stuff she needs to do in the morning to get ready and our 4 kids ready. She took the time to hold me. Her embrace eased the pain a little. It was a long day. I came home late from work. I bought a pizza so I could do my art instead of making dinner. I am very lucky to be loved. Not many people care if I do art. My wife cares. She is always supporting me. Cheering me on to do more work. A lot of the time the art I make is for her.
You can see a little bit of the orange sherbet for my sons ice cream cone on the art piece. I’m happy it cleaned up as well as it did. today was a long day. I installed stone around a fireplace. It went up 18 feet. it’s harder than you would think to make it look random. To have no pattern to the stones. It was fun to do something new. I always love learning how to do new work. I feel I could about build a house by myself. It was nice to have enough energy when I came home to do my art piece. I am going to try over the next 30 days to do a new piece. I once did it for three years straight so thirty days should be easy. (It’s never easy) But I have to do the work if I am going to get better. Until tomorrow.
I would love to make enough money to support my family. It’s tough. I have done it in the past with my acting. I would like to do it with my art/writing. I am very happy with this piece. You don’t want to see the first version. It’s a cluttered mess. I had to much going on. My thought process was to keep adding. “Yeah, that will fix it”. No it doesn’t. I then step aside surprisedly not frustrated and thought what do I really want here. What do I want to express here. I boiled it down to handfuls of elements. I wanted to show a day broken down into a few lines. I then wanted to so an act of kindness taking you on a amazing journey. I think I got that all in there. Hope you like it. I need to get to reading my book.
Spent the day doing projects around the house. Trying to fight off this wave of depression. The year is ending and I feel unaccomplished. I need to finish a creative project before the year is over. I’m thankful for the loving support of my family during this time. Would be a lot more depressed. I’m very proud of this piece.
My foundation for trying to achieve my dreams is because of my families love. Most important is my wife’s love. She gives up so much to allow me to be creative. She believes me. There is so much power in someone believing in you. It gives you the strength to keep climbing. TO achieve a dream is never over night. It’s a long journey. One with a lot of hardship. Money is always tight. Love though flows freely. I know my kids love having me around. We are always dreaming up adventures together. My youngest daughter wants to be an artist. As a family I hope we keep adding more love and happiness to this world each day.
On a positive note I started a writing project I’ve wanted to tackle for a long time. This time I will finish. I have to. I need to. It may end up being a big failure. That doesn’t matter really to me. What matters is doing the work. To leave my mark on this world. One hopefully makes it a little better.
This drawing isn’t about physical death, it’s about death to oneself. I have been married for 24 years. I think this concept rings true if one wants to stay with someone for a long time. It’s hard to be in a relationship when you put ourself first all the time. I know this because I can be pretty selfish. I’m very lucky that my wife has put up with me for this long. It’s been rough since we have moved out to the east coast to help family. I haven’t helped them out as much as it’s helped me. I have had to do some big time adulting. (as the kids say) Many days I have been broken. Out of those broken pieces is growing a person that is more loving. I hope. It looks like we will be stuck out here for a year while trying to raise funds to get back. Getting rid of our rent controlled apartment in Hollywood was a big mistake. I’m learning from these failures. I plan to do release a few projects. I could be setting myself up for some big time failing or maybe just maybe I will succeed. I have no idea what that’s like but it would be nice to feel success. some day.