Got a lot done today. Helped my dad clear out his garage so he can put a model A car inside. He is so happy that he is going to restore an old car. I hope that my son and I will be able to help him out some before we leave. The wife looks to be sick. It’s going to be long night.
It should be you me sandwich but I like the sound of me you sandwich better. I haven’t been feeling well lately. Really tired. I was mudding a wall today and the pan felt so heavy. I don’t know if it’s a lack of sleep. The hose to our RV froze last night. I woke up to no water. It had dropped below freezing last night and our hose hook up cost 230 dollars is suppose to heat up when it gets cold. It shouldn’t freeze unless its 45 below zero. Well it can’t work if the outlet its hooked up to dies. Which is what happened. I got a new GFI outlet at work today. Will replace tomorrow. Not a big fan of the cold. I can’t wait to get back to Southern California.
Running a little late today. Last night everyone in the family was up in the middle of the night. My wife got up to the kids eating waffles. Everyone was in a good mood despite the hour. I knew though in the morning the kids would be cranky about getting up for school. They weren’t to bad. Christmas is around the corner. I have no idea how we will make it. We don’t have a tree. When you downsize your life it’s hard to fit a Christmas tree in it. We will hardly have room for the presents. At least we have a roof over our head. Things are tough but we are getting by. I have good feelings about next year. I really plan to get my book done by the end of the holidays.
This was the second attempt at the theme I was going for. I’m ok with it. Below is the first attempt. I don’t like the upper part of the painting. Though when I cropped it after scanning I didn’t think it looked to bad.
I was driving home from working all day and was staring at the sunset. I thought about the skyline being a bed. Wouldn’t it be great to snuggling up there with my wife for the day. Then I thought wouldn’t it be great if we could stay there all winter. Then reality hit. We had to run a bunch of errands. Maybe next year.
Had to push myself to get through work today after the long weekend. Not going to do to much writing tonight. I was inspired by all the paintings at the National museum of Art. I want to try a whole bunch of styles. I love using bright colors. I will have to go back to see the Gauguins. Love his use of colors. Need to relax before heading to bed. May start a new Netflix show.
I would love to make enough money to support my family. It’s tough. I have done it in the past with my acting. I would like to do it with my art/writing. I am very happy with this piece. You don’t want to see the first version. It’s a cluttered mess. I had to much going on. My thought process was to keep adding. “Yeah, that will fix it”. No it doesn’t. I then step aside surprisedly not frustrated and thought what do I really want here. What do I want to express here. I boiled it down to handfuls of elements. I wanted to show a day broken down into a few lines. I then wanted to so an act of kindness taking you on a amazing journey. I think I got that all in there. Hope you like it. I need to get to reading my book.
This morning as I was getting the kids ready for school we were jamming out to Kelsea Ballerini’s new Album Apologetically. It’s a great album. I love the song Legend. I have done some sketches earlier for an idea I had for this song. I got to thinking on the way to work about simple shapes. I came up with another drawing idea for the song legend. While the kids did their homework I did this doodle. I hope you enjoy. I am trying to put out of my winter funk by doing some art pieces. Today was so cloudy and raining it made me think about the neon moments in my life.
Inspired by Kip Moore’s song Crazy One More Time on album Up All Night and Van Gogh’s Bedroom in Arles. The lyrics of the song are on the dress laying on the bed. I had a lot of fun doing this piece. It’s been a while since I have posted any work. I have been busy with other projects but have been dreaming about painting. I had to get one out of my system before I went crazy. I still want to do a piece inspired by every song on Kip Moore’s album Up all night. Love Slow heart. It’s been on repeat.
I have been married for 24 years. I have 4 kids. Yet my wife and I still have nights like we were first dating. We don’t have much money. We have a lot of love. Sometimes we head out to grab a beer. To take a moment to remember that we are still here for each other. I have never been to a Kip Moore concert. Some day I would like to go. It’s on my bucket list. We will live it up that night. May have to get the dad to babysit the kids over night. Get a hotel and pretend we are newly married couple with no kids. Just for the night. We love our little ones very much but we also have to take care of our relationship if we want it to stay together. Enjoy your night I’m going to watch a little Luke Cage with the wife.
My foundation for trying to achieve my dreams is because of my families love. Most important is my wife’s love. She gives up so much to allow me to be creative. She believes me. There is so much power in someone believing in you. It gives you the strength to keep climbing. TO achieve a dream is never over night. It’s a long journey. One with a lot of hardship. Money is always tight. Love though flows freely. I know my kids love having me around. We are always dreaming up adventures together. My youngest daughter wants to be an artist. As a family I hope we keep adding more love and happiness to this world each day.
On a positive note I started a writing project I’ve wanted to tackle for a long time. This time I will finish. I have to. I need to. It may end up being a big failure. That doesn’t matter really to me. What matters is doing the work. To leave my mark on this world. One hopefully makes it a little better.
This drawing isn’t about physical death, it’s about death to oneself. I have been married for 24 years. I think this concept rings true if one wants to stay with someone for a long time. It’s hard to be in a relationship when you put ourself first all the time. I know this because I can be pretty selfish. I’m very lucky that my wife has put up with me for this long. It’s been rough since we have moved out to the east coast to help family. I haven’t helped them out as much as it’s helped me. I have had to do some big time adulting. (as the kids say) Many days I have been broken. Out of those broken pieces is growing a person that is more loving. I hope. It looks like we will be stuck out here for a year while trying to raise funds to get back. Getting rid of our rent controlled apartment in Hollywood was a big mistake. I’m learning from these failures. I plan to do release a few projects. I could be setting myself up for some big time failing or maybe just maybe I will succeed. I have no idea what that’s like but it would be nice to feel success. some day.
It’s been raining on and off all day. It’s suppose to rain all day tomorrow. This is making my depressed. I miss sunny California days. I’m one of the few people that love living in Los Angeles and I’m the one that left. I can’t wait to get back. It’s looking like we won’t be able to get out there for a year. We need to save up some more money. We have been hit with a few bills lately. I had to go to the hospital. A sweet kidney stone tried to do me in. I need to focus on getting my work done. My birthday is coming up soon. It would make me very happy to have some of my half finished projects done. I’m going to lay in bed for a little day dreaming about sunnier weather.
Feeling stuck. Not living the life I want to live right now. I need to get off the mat. The terrible thing is I knocked myself down. I have learned a lot about myself in the last few months. One thing I have learned if I don’t have a plan each day my life goes off kilter. Quick. I end up wasting time on social media. I need to focus on finishing projects. Work. Work. Work is going to set my free. Only by completing things will I truly move ahead. I need to self all the ideas that run through my head each day and focus on finishing the one.
Happy to be feeling better. Sunday I was in intense pain. Had to go to the hospital. Ended up passing a kidney stone monday morning. It was about half the size of a pea. Very thankful to have family to love me. Happy to have loved ones to take care of my family while I was sick. I was a grumpy Gus the whole time. Haven’t slept in the last few days. Very tired. Time to hit the hay. Enjoy tonights drawing.