Every season… Storm. I will love you.
Spent the day doing projects around the house. Trying to fight off this wave of depression. The year is ending and I feel unaccomplished. I need to finish a creative project before the year is over. I’m thankful for the loving support of my family during this time. Would be a lot more depressed. I’m very proud of this piece.
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I died the day I entered your heart
This drawing isn’t about physical death, it’s about death to oneself. I have been married for 24 years. I think this concept rings true if one wants to stay with someone for a long time. It’s hard to be in a relationship when you put ourself first all the time. I know this because I can be pretty selfish. I’m very lucky that my wife has put up with me for this long. It’s been rough since we have moved out to the east coast to help family. I haven’t helped them out as much as it’s helped me. I have had to do some big time adulting. (as the kids say) Many days I have been broken. Out of those broken pieces is growing a person that is more loving. I hope. It looks like we will be stuck out here for a year while trying to raise funds to get back. Getting rid of our rent controlled apartment in Hollywood was a big mistake. I’m learning from these failures. I plan to do release a few projects. I could be setting myself up for some big time failing or maybe just maybe I will succeed. I have no idea what that’s like but it would be nice to feel success. some day.
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I would have torn down the gates of heaven for your love
Today’s piece marks me doing this for three years straight. This will be my last piece for awhile. I have had fun. It’s been stressful doing a piece every day no matter what. I have grown a lot. I will do a piece from time to time. I’m starting some new projects that will take up more of my time. Plus I am gearing up for a big move. Keep loving each day.
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Love the long road worth taking
Love is waking up at five in the morning and instead of trying to get more sleep you get up to go buy doughnuts. So everyone you care about has a special treat to start their day. Their happiness makes you happy. Keeping doing loving acts for one another.
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In all these tears I will find love.
I’m so tired I am almost in tears. One good thing I uncovered a reoccurring pattern that happens each night that I have to eliminate. I need to focus on having a system not goals. Each night when I go over my days accomplishments I only get stressed out. Instead I need to focus on all the things I do daily to move forward. Keep the positive in my mind. The stress is destroying my sleep. Some weeks I am barely getting 28 hours. An that is a good night if I get 4 hours. Some nights I only get 2. This is a growing pain for the life I’m trying to grow into. Ok I need to try to sleep. I haven’t had any fluids since 4 pm. praying for a good night sleep.
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