Very productive day. Went back to doing a construction job. Got a stairwell at a office building prepped for painting. Took the kids to the pool after work. had fun playing with them. Then I did a youtube video for our new toy channel. Then tried a little mixed media. I thought the heart turned out pretty well. I was doing research online about selling art. The name Kelly Rae Roberts came up. I’m thinking about buying her book for 140 bucks to help my site out.. She has a very nice story. I didn’t start doing art until I was 42. I hope to have may years making art. I would like to make a living doing it. Someday I will make a good living doing art.
This is what happens when you listen to to much Leonard Cohen. My drawings get a darker tone to them. Getting tired of all the rain. It’s been a long day. I painted two rooms at my Dad’s condo. I have 3 more to do. I need to get them done before he starts renting it to summer guests. Only a few weeks left. Ned to spend sometime with the family tomorrow instead of working so much.
I hope that my wife and I never lose that romance. We have been married 22 years. We still have a very involved romantic life. Which explains us having four kids. That isn’t to say we don’t have tough times. Our financial strain of late has stressed our marriage more than it’s ever been. The good news is we put the work in to our married life. We feel stronger than we have in years. We have kept the channels of honesty open. We will be married for 23 years in a couple of months and I want to do something romantic for the wife. She has put up with a lot this year. I need to figure out what that will be. I would love to take her to New York city for the weekend but I don’t think our youngest isn’t ready for that. In a few years. Something to look forward to down the road.
I first starting putting in drawings of Ellen to see if the wife would notice. She caught on but I wanted to see if I could do it for 30 days. This is the last one. I dream of being on Ellen some day. I will keep reaching for that dream every day. I don’t think I did to bad of a job for a rush job. Keep dreaming, keep loving and drawing those hearts.
A very productive day until one of the little ones got sick. Learned how to add text to my images for my upcoming kids book. Very excited. Was a little frustrating at times getting the hang of it but finally got it to work. Fixed printer. Printed a sample page. Even surprised the wife. She loves seeing progress.
Kids had a snow day today. Threw a monkey wrench into the whole day. I was trying to finishing writing the kids book I’m working on. When I was into the third rewrite I notice a little detail I added. This changed the whole story once again. The best part is it made it awesome. It now is a much better story. I have to tweek a few words here and there but very happy now. Used up a lot of creative energy today. It felt good. Starting to feel better about my writing. The poor kids are hoping for another snow day. Its not going to happen. I did spend some some quality time with them today. Which at the end of the day makes me feel good. Need to go to bed I can hear the wife already snoring.
Tired. More like tap out. I worked on my book today. Feel like I hit a creative wall. I will watch a little Captain Fantastic tonight. Tired of looking for work. Hoping to make some money before my sons third birthday. I would like to get him a couple of presents. It’s not looking good. Really scraping the barrel right now. I need a break that is for sure. I could be angry about things. Instead I try to be more loving. Put the shopping cart back so someone has a better day. Doing little things every day to show the people around me I love them. It isn’t always easy. I want to give in. To do nothing. That really isn’t me I will keep pressing forward. Trying to make things happen. I have four months to make enough money to get back to California. I would like to make enough to buy a trailer so we have a roof over our head. Life is what you make it. I want to make it a great big BBQ with loved ones and friends.
I went a little crazy with this one. I was thinking how my life was before I found love. It was a very dark place. Now it hasn’t been all sunshine, unicorns, rainbows and cupcakes since I found love but it has been a whole lot better. My girls made fun of me for coloring the unicorns like horses. I told them they were tough boy unicorns. They also made fun of my cupcakes. I guess they are more swirl pattern now then a glob of frosting. It’s a very silly piece.
I am a big fan of country music but I think it gets a bum rap for being only sad drinking songs. Country is a lot bigger than that. It has every emotion that one can feel. I have seen Kenny Chesney. Love to see him again. Would love to see Little Big Town, Sam Hunt and Miranda Lambert to name just a few. I hit a creative stride today while I waited for my oldest daughters IEP meeting. I wrote down five pages of notes for the kids book I am working on. The meeting went well. She is really improving in school. I can’t wait to go get my registration renewed. I have put it off to the last minute.
We spend so much time, effort and money on proving to people we are right. We are yelling at one another to prove our point. While people starve. While people are being sold into slavery. Is love dying a little each day? Where are we headed as a society? I could be mad at my current situation instead I just said to hell with it all. Almost every night for the last few weeks I have been spending a lot of my time thinking about my problems. Tonight I decided to wrestle the kids for an hour. To have fun. To smile. And guess what happened? Work came in. Things are starting to turn around. Not only in my life but my mind. Have a good night everyone. Don’t forget my gofundme campaign in you want to support art.
I have stared at the keys on my keyboard until they became blurry. I’m working on moving this site to another one. I want to try another name to see if it gets more traction. I have been doing this for years and I barley get any views. I bang my head against the wall wondering what am I doing wrong. That’s enough about me. I do see a light at the tunnel. Though a long way off. My wife got a job today. That was a huge deal. A big help to this family. I think we may just be able to get out of this pit we are in.
My only hope is people find a little love in their lives. Draw a heart. Show love.
Even when you are in a pit one can still dream. Hitting some rough times right now. A friend from Los Angeles passed away the other day. He was only 42. He was incredibly sweet guy. When he came over to our apartment building to visit his girl friend my kids would beg to play with him. He was someone who I could trust with my kids. He didn’t;t tell anyone he was sick. It has me spinning. Then other friends of mine baby is in the hospital. It can’t eat. They have her on an IV. So scary. I’m praying for them. I hate seeing children sick. My problems right now seem so small.
I have thought about selling my car and moving back to California. I know the kids need to finish school. We a half way through the school year. It will be over before I know it. I have a wife that loves me. My kids love me. We are all in good health. I just need to make a few bucks. I have the important things. I keep dreaming. I know that sounds stupid. But dreams have taken care of me for 19 years. Dreams and love can make so many things happen. One foot in front of another. Finish those projects. Time to make some money.
I was so bummed out today my daughter drew this picture of a monkey painting a heart. Enjoy.
Sunday is family time. Took the kids down to the beach. Practiced on my camera. I’m going to master that thing. practice makes perfect. Played cards with my kids. Lied the drawing of the guy in the picture tonight. I don’t like to draw profiles. Getting better. The book I bought the other day is helping. Once again practice makes perfect. I will have to upload the other drawing I did for this. I like this one better. I’m glad we have our health. Like many families in America we are one flat tire away from ruin. I’m going to listen to Leonard Cohen in the dark with my wife and dream about love. Have a good night everyone.
Here’s the other version. You decide which you like better.
Just a reminder I have a gofundme campaign. I have some great rewards.